Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Looks like the prayer just wasn't answered!
if the prayer was answered, it wasn't the answered that we had wanted. We used our last contact this week and it doesn't look good. At this point, it looks as if the adoption isn't going to be able to be finished. There is so much drama involved that I can't even begin to go in to it here. The only thing that could help at this point is a miracle and I can't really believe that will happen at this point. I can't begin to describe how we feel. We do appreciate all of your support through the last few months.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Monday!
Sorry that I haven't posted in a while. Last week was one that I hope not to repeat again. On Thursday, I woke up feeling a bit ill. As many of us know, when you have kids, you can't take the day off, so I got up and went about the day as usual. Around 3 or 4 I started to feel pretty bad and at 6 I called Gareth and asked him to try and come home early. At 6:30 I called my mom and asked her to come over and help with the kids. Gareth was able to come home about an hour early and at 8:00 when he walked through the door, I told him that I thought i needed to go to the hospital. Long story short, by the time we got there, i had a raging fever, and my heart rate was over 140. They took me straight back, hooked me up to an IV and that is where I stayed for the next few hours. At 2:30a.m., after many tests and check x-ray etc., they explained that since they couldn't get my heart rate down under 120, and I had pneumonia, they were preparing to admit me. GREAT!!! I got to spend Friday and Saturday in the hospital. On Saturday night when the doctor came in, I told her I was going home. What an awful place to be if you are sick. Needless to say, I am trying to take it easy now. I did go out for an hour today and kinda regret it now:0) i will be taking it easy this week trying to get my strength back up. We do have the most wonderful friends that have helped with the kids and that have made some meals so that Gareth doesn't have to stress about food this week. As for me, I don't have much of an appetite yet, so maybe the plus to this will be losing a few pounds:0)
We are praying for news on the adoption by the end of the week. Hopefully it will be good news!!
We are praying for news on the adoption by the end of the week. Hopefully it will be good news!!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Middle of the week and no new news!!
Well, it is the middle of the week. Our contact went down on Monday and has had no luck finding anything out on our case. It has been very disappointing to get emails from her with no new news. She was really the last hope we had when it comes to people that we personally know.
We have one option left and although it isn't the best alternative for us as it is going to def. cost more money, we have to try it before giving up completely. At least if we try, we will know where we stand. If we give up now without knowing, we will always wonder. I do have a hard time believing that we were brought this far to not bring him home, but as days have turned in to weeks and now months since we were issued approval, it seems more possible that that is indeed the case. My heart aches and we are trying very hard to remain strong. I know that I haven't had the morning sickness this time, although I have been pretty sick to my stomach, and I know that I haven't gained pregnancy weight,(i know, i didn't gain with Alex) although I have gained more weight from stress eating. I have experienced many things that were the same as Alex's pregnancy and many that were different. There were similar things in Callum's adoption and different. The one thing that is the same is that we would like to have the joy of having another child and I just pray that it really does get to happen.
We got word today that Gareth's parents are coming at the end of April. We are so excited that we now have something positive to look forward to. We haven't told the kids and don't think that we will until they are about to come. We will never hear the end of "when are they coming?" if we tell them now:0)
Please continue to keep our whole adoption situation in your prayers!!!! Please pray for our strength. That we will be able to get answers which ever way we are supposed to go. Please pray for the beautiful little boy that is waiting to be loved and held. That he is being taken care of. Please pray for our family. Alex and Callum. Alex keeps talking about her brother and she just doesn't understand that it might not happen. Please pray that we are able to find trustworthy people to try and help us!!
We have one option left and although it isn't the best alternative for us as it is going to def. cost more money, we have to try it before giving up completely. At least if we try, we will know where we stand. If we give up now without knowing, we will always wonder. I do have a hard time believing that we were brought this far to not bring him home, but as days have turned in to weeks and now months since we were issued approval, it seems more possible that that is indeed the case. My heart aches and we are trying very hard to remain strong. I know that I haven't had the morning sickness this time, although I have been pretty sick to my stomach, and I know that I haven't gained pregnancy weight,(i know, i didn't gain with Alex) although I have gained more weight from stress eating. I have experienced many things that were the same as Alex's pregnancy and many that were different. There were similar things in Callum's adoption and different. The one thing that is the same is that we would like to have the joy of having another child and I just pray that it really does get to happen.
We got word today that Gareth's parents are coming at the end of April. We are so excited that we now have something positive to look forward to. We haven't told the kids and don't think that we will until they are about to come. We will never hear the end of "when are they coming?" if we tell them now:0)
Please continue to keep our whole adoption situation in your prayers!!!! Please pray for our strength. That we will be able to get answers which ever way we are supposed to go. Please pray for the beautiful little boy that is waiting to be loved and held. That he is being taken care of. Please pray for our family. Alex and Callum. Alex keeps talking about her brother and she just doesn't understand that it might not happen. Please pray that we are able to find trustworthy people to try and help us!!
Friday, January 4, 2008
Ya know, it just never ends.....
So, we get an email last night saying that someone is going down on Monday. They will try and get to the bottom of everything. That is great. They do need money for foster care fees. We knew that. I had today to wire it. I went to the bank first thing this morning, 9:15 to be exact and took care of everything. I was then gone for the day. I got home about 5:30 after picking Alex up from school and running a few errands. Well, our bank had called at noon saying that they needed another address in order to wire the money. Apparently the bank routing number, account number and bank address were not enough, even though when I was there, they said they had everything they needed. Long story short, it was 5:45 by the time I got the message. The bank is closed. Luckily, I just got off the phone with the women going down and she said that I should take care of it asap, but it should be ok. Thank heavens that she called or I would have stressed all weekend. She did ask me to ask for prayer. Please pray that she is able to find favor with the people down there and get answers. That she is gentle and wise. This next week will be huge for us and hopefully by the end of the week we will at least know where we stand in terms of our case!!! Please pray!!!
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Day 1 in to the New Year!
So, who would have expected drama the first day of the new year? Not Us:0)
Last night, we got home from Basketball and Cheerleading and I noticed during the practices how pale Alex was. She wasn't acting like herself, but she didn't want to leave. We got home, got the kids a bath and then put them to bed. Today was the first day back at school and Alex was VERY excited to go back. Around 10:30, I heard her in her bed crying. I went in thinking that she had had a nightmare. She was burning up with fever and was complaining that her throat hurt and she couldn't breath. Now, Alex is the child that had pneumonia at 2 and was still running around like nothing was wrong. She hates to stop and she hates to miss school. I asked, do we need to go to the doctor? That means no school tomorrow. She said, "mommy I hurt real bad." My heart broke. So, I took her down to the E.R. We had to spend most of the night there. It turns out that she has strep throat,(her throat was very swollen) an ear infection and a fever. Poor thing!! She never once complained about her ear, but the Dr. said "An adult that had an ear that red and swollen would have been crying like a baby. She must have a very high tolerance for pain." She got so upset when the Doctor said no school for 2 days. So, we have spent today catching up on sleep, which is pretty hard to do considering Callum got a full nights sleep. She says that she is feeling better now, but she also says that she wants to go back to school tomorrow. She is still very pale and hasn't eaten today, so my theary is that she is just trying to convince me to let her go tomorrow. NOt gonna happen:0)I hope that she loves school this much when she is a teenager!!
Last night, we got home from Basketball and Cheerleading and I noticed during the practices how pale Alex was. She wasn't acting like herself, but she didn't want to leave. We got home, got the kids a bath and then put them to bed. Today was the first day back at school and Alex was VERY excited to go back. Around 10:30, I heard her in her bed crying. I went in thinking that she had had a nightmare. She was burning up with fever and was complaining that her throat hurt and she couldn't breath. Now, Alex is the child that had pneumonia at 2 and was still running around like nothing was wrong. She hates to stop and she hates to miss school. I asked, do we need to go to the doctor? That means no school tomorrow. She said, "mommy I hurt real bad." My heart broke. So, I took her down to the E.R. We had to spend most of the night there. It turns out that she has strep throat,(her throat was very swollen) an ear infection and a fever. Poor thing!! She never once complained about her ear, but the Dr. said "An adult that had an ear that red and swollen would have been crying like a baby. She must have a very high tolerance for pain." She got so upset when the Doctor said no school for 2 days. So, we have spent today catching up on sleep, which is pretty hard to do considering Callum got a full nights sleep. She says that she is feeling better now, but she also says that she wants to go back to school tomorrow. She is still very pale and hasn't eaten today, so my theary is that she is just trying to convince me to let her go tomorrow. NOt gonna happen:0)I hope that she loves school this much when she is a teenager!!
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Happy New Year!!!
We had our nephews on Sunday night and that was great!! We didn't have church so we went to a friends to watch the Redskins WIN!!! Go SKINS!! Gareth and I didn't exchange gifts this year for Christmas as we were hoping to go to Guatemala and now we are still saving for going to Guatemala. Anyway, on Sunday he surprised me with a Brand New Redskins Jersey that just "couldn't be passed up." It was a #7 Theismann. It was originally $110.00. He noticed that it had a pen mark on it, so he went up and asked if there was another in Medium. The manager said, "no, but I will discount it for you." He said that he would have taken it for $65.00 as it was authentic and stitched. When she quoted him $50 he said it was a no brain er. How sweet he is. He made my day by the gift, but those of you who know me well, know the deal meant just as much. I was so proud of him, and I am sure that we will be able to get the pin mark out. I am just not aloud to try until after they play on Saturday. (unless they win, then it will have to wait again)
Anyway, New Years Eve.... we have decided that we are not young anymore. The 2 of us went to dinner and a movie. It was so nice. Midnight saw us on the couch trying to keep our eyes open. (so sad) During dinner, we were talking about how hard the past 4 years have been. My dad's health keeps going down hill, miscarriage, my moms bout with cancer, waiting for Callum, now waiting for Nicholas, not to mention many others. Needless to say, it is pretty easy to say that we haven't had a smooth patch of time for a while. Gareth said that he feels 2008 will be our year!!! Regardless of what happens and what things are thrown at us, we will start to really enjoy life again. Our lives have been filled with so much drama and we have really been in a holding pattern waiting for almost 2 years for our newest addition. As easy as it would be for us to dwell on all of the negatives, We are really going to try to stay focused on the positive and really enjoy life!!!! I pray that 2008 gets a little easier for us, but I also know that through the past years, we have grown. We have gown as individuals and as a couple. We joked that a little break to come up for air would be nice:0) So, here is to 2008!!! Another wonderful year with a wonderful family, beautiful children and the Grace of God that has gotten us here and will continue to get us through!!
Anyway, New Years Eve.... we have decided that we are not young anymore. The 2 of us went to dinner and a movie. It was so nice. Midnight saw us on the couch trying to keep our eyes open. (so sad) During dinner, we were talking about how hard the past 4 years have been. My dad's health keeps going down hill, miscarriage, my moms bout with cancer, waiting for Callum, now waiting for Nicholas, not to mention many others. Needless to say, it is pretty easy to say that we haven't had a smooth patch of time for a while. Gareth said that he feels 2008 will be our year!!! Regardless of what happens and what things are thrown at us, we will start to really enjoy life again. Our lives have been filled with so much drama and we have really been in a holding pattern waiting for almost 2 years for our newest addition. As easy as it would be for us to dwell on all of the negatives, We are really going to try to stay focused on the positive and really enjoy life!!!! I pray that 2008 gets a little easier for us, but I also know that through the past years, we have grown. We have gown as individuals and as a couple. We joked that a little break to come up for air would be nice:0) So, here is to 2008!!! Another wonderful year with a wonderful family, beautiful children and the Grace of God that has gotten us here and will continue to get us through!!
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